Why Should This Happen To Her???

Why...? Why...? Why...? This should not happen to her(should not...!!!). Life is unpredictable(even animals). I really can't believe that this had happened,I really can't take it. Now she is not with me anymore,she had left me. Whose fault is this? Is it me...the food she consumed...the injections given by the doctor...??? I don't know...all this happen too sudden,I don't even know what is the actual causes of her death. I feel so useless because can't save her.

Yesterday wanted to visit her, so went there with my mom. All the way to the shop, I keep on thinking will she be better or other wise but I think the positive way because I want her to be alive. Then reached the shop, from the face of the auntie there, I can feel that there is something wrong. Correct...really a bad news for me as the uncle told me that she didn't make it. I couldn't hold my tears and I cried on the spot. So took her body home to be buried and all the way home I couldn't stop crying.

I regret that I didn't visit her on Sunday because she died on that night. Why didn't I visit her, didn't even look at her for the last time before she pass away. I feel so down when I think back again. I should have visit her on that day... The day before(Saturday), I did visit her and from her condition I could feel that she is very2 sick. As I looked into her eyes, they were very red and watery(crying...does that bring any meaning) and I almost cried. After that went home and hope that she'll gets better(but now she's not here already).

The uncle even said that if we didn't bring her to the vet then her probability to stay alive could be higher because he said suppose this type of condition should not be given injections(somemore she was given 3 injections,too much). But what can we do...it's all too late already. I don't know who to be blame...?

She's a part of my life but now she had left me so a part of my life is empty already. Before this, a part of me is filled up by her. Everyday she's with me no matter where I go. I really miss her very much especially the moments where she waits for me at the door when I'm back from somewhere, waits outside my room every morning, sleeps beside me, follows me all over the house, plays with me, goes out with me in my car, running around and many more which I can't finish mentioning here.

I can't do anything because she's dead and I must go on with my life. I do hope that maybe someday I can find another dog like her(if possible but maybe not 100% the same personality). Hope that she can rest in peace...

Will She Survive...???

Will she survive...??? This is the question on my mind these few days. I'm really afraid that she will leave me, I can't afford to lose her. She is so close to me and among all my family members I am the one that is closest to her.

She is very cheerful, playful, energetic, cute, and...lots more. Remember the first day she came into our house, she can adapt so well and I like fell in love for her. I think this is quite true because she is a part of my life other than my family members.

Then last week, I also don't know what had happen and why it happen... She is not feeling very well. She doesn't has the apetite, diarrhoea, vomit, no energy and so moody. I don't understand why this can happen. On the 30th December 2006, we brought her to clinic and she was given 3 injections. So pity her(she's in pain)...but what to do,have to. The doctor said she's having a very high fever. Then took her back with some medicine.

We thought that she will be better after this but the situation din get better until yesterday she didn't eat anything. Before this still ok...at least got eat a little bit. So we brought her to the pet shop where she's from and the uncle said there might be worms attacking her inside(she was given tablet to get rid the worms). Then bring her home with some tablets.

She did gets better a bit and I was so happy. However this doesn't last long because today she vomit out the tablet that I fed her and doesn't want to eat also. She keeps on lying down on the floor(at this moment I'm so worry that she will just go away and leave me).

After taking my lunch, quickly take her to the pet shop again. I'm really afraid that I will lose her, so I leave her there to be taken care by that uncle(she will be given medication). I was told that she still have the chance to recover and I'm a bit relieve. So by the time I'm going out of the shop, she wants to follow me home(oh god, feeling very sad coz have to leave her there).

Don't know what will happen next(only God knows)...but I really hope that she can recover because I really love her very much. I can't imagine how's my world if she's not here anymore. WinWin...you must be strong and recover, I miss you very much. (WinWin...my lovely doggie)

Year 2007...A Brand New Year...

Hmm...look like another year had past. Now is a new year, a new beginning, another new world, new..., new..., new..., dono wat else is new. No matter what it is...have to go on with the life no matter how bad it is. Time really flies by very fast, without realising it this year I am 20 years old oredy.

So what is my next destination...??? I oso don't know coz I'm so confuse, now I'm on the pathway with no proper direction and goal. There are too many things on my mind and just feel like want to take all...but tat's impossible coz life is short and so we must enjoy our life to the fullest with what we are best and interested in...

That's one of my problem, but there's another problem to be worried before thinking of my future studies (STPM result). I really don't know how I want to apply in local University coz I have done really very2 badly in my STPM. So now juz wait for the result to be out then only i'll decide...haiz... Life is not easy...

Hmm...so boring lar...doing nothing(jobless at d moment). Everyday only watching movies, eating, sleeping, surfing internet and doing nothing. Wanna find job, earn sum $$$...coz such a long time to wait for the STPM and admittance into local U result to be out. So might be going out to Singapore find work lo...

Haiz...really 'fan' lar... So now don't want to think of anything. Just wait for the time to go out Singapore then come back, get STPM result, wait for admittance into local U(if can get) then the rest at that time only think of it liao la... Now want to enjoy 1st...hooray...

My School Life (Part IV)

Oh gosh...it's a new year (2007) oredy...but i've not finish my blog on my school life. Haiz...actually wanted to finish up last week but the stupid,slow connection make me really very sick of it and...lazy to blog. So today 1 2 finish up the very last part of school life story which is in SMK Methodist (ACS) Sitiawan. So will b quite a long...long...story...
The 1st day step into the school feel like a bit different from usual coz it's a new environment for me but sooner or later of coz get better and know more friends lor... In lower 6 nothing much lar...get to know more people,study and involve in sum activities.

Then in upper 6 (2006), more things to be done oredy. First few months very5 buzy with lots of activities in school. Firstly, stuff wif school sports day...tis is really a very enjoyable moment, seeing all those people in high spirit no matter doing what (management, house decoration, marching, cheerleading, athletics events and much2 more). I oso won't forget this sports day because my house (Tai Swee Kee) win in the very last minute and become the champion for another year+winner of house decoration. Would like to thank everyone tat hav taken part and co-operate wif me, so hope tat in 2007 u people still can retain the title. All the best to Tai Swee Kee-ian...

After sports, busy wif 6th form society activities which is being held in such a tight schedule. Lots of activities to be done in only 2 months time(April & May)...Pengajian Am quiz, badminton, basketball, volleyball, chess competition, lower six orientation, blood donation campaign, food n drinks sales during ACS carnival and oso teachers' day(games & performances). Luckily can get thru all these wif the help from sum of the members. Because of the support given by teachers n oso members, we manage to get all the activities done in time. Thank you...

Tat's bout 6th form society, then 1 2 talk bout ACS carnival...which i won't forget after leaving the schl. Tis type of carnival is kinda fun n unforgetable 1, i guess. Wat i 1 2 write here is bout my involvement 2gether wif a vry close friend in the preparation b4 n during the carnival. 1 day b4 the carnival, me n LayChooi were 2 of the busiest person,i think so... Going around the schl from class to class(collect information for parade), morning until 3pm. Walauweh...tat time ar...we really like 'siau po' leh...walking non-stop. The next day, another task to be done. We need to line up all the students according to classes, lead them to the field and arrange their position. Finally, the parade is over oredy and we r like...fuh...although very tired but really very satisfied wif wat we have done coz it's a successful 1.

MASCTECH 10th anniversary, I am in charge of making bookmark. Only hav 3/4 days time to get all the bookmarks done and sell them during the expo. It's like unbelievable tat wif the help from a few of my friends, we manage to make more than 150 bookmarks (handmade,using leaves & flowers). Really vry satisfied wif our work coz manage to sell almost all of them. I really 1 2 thank all my friends tat helped me to do the bookmarks in such a short time (LayChooi, MingSie, MingJu, ChinSiew, HuiYong, ChingLim, LiKin, WangKee, XiaoFen)...without u all,sure it won't be so 'laku'...

After all those activities, nothing to do liao...oni going to farewell party and eat...hehe... Then need to concentrate on studies liao lo...coz STPM coming but dono why i juz can't concentrate 100% in my study n as a result my trial exam 'sucks'... Haiz...it's all bcoz of the attitude of don care n din do enough practice, so the result oso 'don care' de lo... Sitting for STPM oso wif nt enough in4mation+knowledge...wat 2 do...it's all too late oredy. So juz wait for the result n then oni decide wat's next.

So...LayChooi n MingSie,hope both of u won't forget our trademark ooh...(D.H.L.) Hahaha...not tat DHL Express meh... All othr friends...hope u all won't forget the sweet n bitter moments tat we shared 2gether,ok... Do keep in touch... Well...tis is the last destination in school life n my long grandfather,grandmother story finish oredy.

My School Life (Part III)

So tis time will b bout my journey in form 4 & 5. In form4 nt vry active in KRS oredy but then still being a vry bzy person in schl,oso dono wat i'm so bzy wif. Usually in form4 they said it's a honeymoon year but nt 4 me. I was nt bzy wif my study bt bzy wif many outdoor activities until i don really care bout my academic. I was so bzy until there's 1 teacher tat even called me VVIP...hahaha... For year 2003(form4) i 1 2 highlight bout d celebration of MERDEKA in schl. I remembered tat year we r vry5 patriotic coz there's a class decoration competition in conjunction wif Independence Day,then my class (4Biru) n another competitor (4Putih) r the 2 classes tat really mean to win (even quarrel among each othr-eg.copycat ideas)...hahaha...(quite childish) But never mind tis is wat we called a healthy competition...then at the end of the day when teacher announced which clss is d winner........(hooray....our class is the winner after all d hard work tat we put in 2gether)


Then in form 5,I have 2 restrict my involvement in outdoor activities oredy juz bcoz of a minor incident at the end of the year 2003 which leave me wif a long term injury until now. On the 24th November 2003 I went 4 a badminton training in Ipoh wif sum frends n coach. We r too excited 2 b there n we din do a proper warm up b4 hav match wif the Ipoh players. As a result when was doing a jumping smash...landed...then the nxt moment...I can't stand up n walk coz my right leg is injured(injury in tendon...till now d injury is still there...haiz...) :(

Form 5 nothing much...handle club,societies n schl activities... Year 2004 was 1 of the most memorable year 4 me i guess. Vry 'kamcheng' wif the schl teachers and we can sit down n talk juz like frends. Then wif the students oso vry good relationship...tat time i know all the form5 students coz as a prefect tat time we muz knw hw 2 tackle pblms wif correct action n they will respect us n giv co-operation. Really happy wif the prefects of my batch...(thank you ppl)

Hav 2 sit 4 SPM exam...not really prepared 100% coz i really wasted a lot of my time especially in form4 so tat time i juz sit 4 d exam wif wat i know...then leave SMK Methodist Ayer Tawar (MESAT) liao...miss the schl oso lo although tat schl nt fully equipped wif facilities. Enjoy the moments having activities in schl...jokes wif frends n chat wif teachers... Well...i guess tat's all in secondary schl. Nxt destination is a new place 4 me(SMK Methodist ACS Sitiawan)...so will continue wif my schl life story in Part IV.

My School Life (Part II)

Well...let's continue wif my story in secondary school(SMK Methodist Ayer Tawar). Mm...my life in lower secondary is mainly bout my involvement in Kadet Remaja Sekolah. Tat time i'm really vry crazy in KRS...i can do anything juz for KRS. Entering form 1 n we need to register ourselves in uniformed bodies, sports/club n societies. So there's a pblm at 1st for me 2 choose which 1 2 enter in d uniformed bodies n i chose PBSM but then later they said there's a new uniformed bodies(tat's KRS) n so i change my choice to KRS.


Tat year i went 4 d school camping organised by KRS which i think is the 1st time in schl. We really enjoyed ourselves vry much in tat camp although vry5 tiring n torturing. Being tortured under the hot sun n doing diffilcult stuff... But the memory which i won't forget is the 'Operasi Burung Hantu' where all of us need 2 get into the rubber tree estate without torchlight n oni depends on the rope tied from tree to tree,summore the trainer oso impersonate as ghost 2 scare us. Waiseh...we all gathered there sharp 12 midnite n we need 2 sit on the road there b4 entering...summore on our left n right are the graves. So scary man...coz when we go in,need 2 bring along joss stick as well. Really crazy lar...they all...make fun of us...coz sum of us r really scared until scream vry loudly n even cry. Tat's d story in form1 camping xperience.


Then in form2 i guess tat's our most victorious year in KRS n oso schl. Bcoz there r no othr schl in Manjung tat hav girls platoon 2 go for the marching competition,then we represented Manjung district. In state level there r oni 2 girls platoon competing n our platoon r chosen 2 represent Perak state for the national level competition in Penang. There i hav pblm wif my parents...when was bout 2 go 4 d competition liao...we need 2 get parents signature for approving us 2 go n the pblm occured is my parents don allow me 2 go at d vry last min(on the day b4 departure)...all of tat is juz bcoz of d sentence in d form which stated 'Sehubungan dengan perkara di atas, dengan ini saya mengakui tidak akan menuntut sebarang tindakan terhadap pihak sekolah sekiranya berlaku kemalangan menimpa kepada anak saya'... Then d nxt day,my parents go 2 schl n hav a quarrel wif d principal n said won't allow me 2 go...so teruk man...then went bck home i hav a quarrel oso(so sad)...i kept staying in my room hoping my parents will change their mind. 1 hour b4 time of departure suddenly they called me n even prepare lunch 4 me...ask me quickly eat n pack my bag. Oh god...was so happy n my tears roll down. Reach schl a bit late...luckily they haven't left me...n every1 was so happy 2 c me joining them as they r worried who'll lead them if i was nt going. Tat's a sad n happy memory i guess...To those friends tat work 2gether n co-operate wif me during those years....thank you n sorry if i've done sumthing wrong.


In form3,my most terrible year wif lots of pblm. Parents don allow me 2 join KRS marching competition but i was so stubborn tat i persuaded them n promise them,tat will b my last year going. So they allowed me to but nt so happy wif my decision coz hav 2 sit 4 PMR exam tat year. After tat,dono wat im so bzy wif in schl,evryday walk in n out of my clssroom 2gether wif a frend until there's 1 teacher tat called us 'peronda sekolah'...a few teachers start getting worried bout me as PMR is nearing. But then finally wif my last 1 month hard work...i got a gd result in my PMR exam at d end of the year. My parents din scold me n teachers oso was surprise+happy wif my results.


Woh...wat a long grandmother story here...ok lar...tat's all bout lower secondary school life. So will still continue wif story bout my school life in part three...chao...

My School Life (Part I)

My primary school life...err...actually can't remember much bout tat. Wat ever it is...of coz there's sumthing i would like 2 write in here so tat i won't forget those memories we've gone thru. So to my friends from SK Methodist Ayer Tawar,hope u all still can remember all the memories tat we shared 2gether.

Standard 1 n 2 can't remember any memories la...mayb bcoz don really hav a very close frend yet gua...then standard 3...let's see...mm...oh yeah i can remember 1 thing. I still remember tat time a few of us tat sit in d same table like to compete with each other during mathematics lesson (if i'm not mistaken...me,Ming Sie,Jenan n a few more i can't really remember la...so don angry to those of u whose name is not in). When ever the teacher said u can start doing ur homework...then we'll count 1...2...3... We start calculating the practices given. When some1 1 2 stop 2 erase their mistakes then we'll shout 'chop'...then every1 will stop. Then when shout 'achee'...every1 will continue wif their work again...hahaha...how sweet we r tat time...

Standard 4,5 n 6...wat i remember are the games we played 2gether. Standard 4 we like 2 play batu seremban,lompat getah n the bottle caps. Then standard 5 even crazier...we played galah panjang n konda-kondi. Tat's normal games...but we r vry 'siao' de...every morning reach school,put down the bag then go out of classroom n play until bell ring...if teacher haven't enter,we'll play until d teacher come. Recess time even worse...we'll quickly run 2 the canteen,buy nasi lemak n put into plastic bag,then run back 2 continue wif our games...(eat n play at 1 time...so 'keng'...). But from here i see tat we r truly Malaysian coz all the 3 races can join 2gether n play the traditional games.

Then Standard 6...tat time popular wif the Digimon cyberpet games. There r many of us own tat n bring 2 school 2 fight wif each other Digimon 2 raise up the level...hehe... Then it's time 4 our UPSR exam...every1 is very hardworking doing lots of exercises. After UPSR...the school organise lots of activities 4 us n i still can remember tat my class(6Biru) won the first place in hockey competition which i won't forget coz we r girls but play like boys(so 'ganas'). The day my school hav Speech Day...our UPSR result is out n we wait 4 our headmistress 2 bring back the results. Finally...she arrived n we still hav 2 wait 4 the teacher 2 highlight out the names wif straight A's. Then those wif 5A's n 4A's attend the Speech Day in afternoon n receive their rewards.

Well...tat's the story of my primary school life. So hope you guys still can remember all this. Ok...then will b going into secondary school liao...so my story will be continued in My School Life (Part II)... Check it out wif more memories which we shared 2gether... :)