Why...? Why...? Why...? This should not happen to her(should not...!!!). Life is unpredictable(even animals). I really can't believe that this had happened,I really can't take it. Now she is not with me anymore,she had left me. Whose fault is this? Is it me...the food she consumed...the injections given by the doctor...??? I don't know...all this happen too sudden,I don't even know what is the actual causes of her death. I feel so useless because can't save her.
Yesterday wanted to visit her, so went there with my mom. All the way to the shop, I keep on thinking will she be better or other wise but I think the positive way because I want her to be alive. Then reached the shop, from the face of the auntie there, I can feel that there is something wrong. Correct...really a bad news for me as the uncle told me that she didn't make it. I couldn't hold my tears and I cried on the spot. So took her body home to be buried and all the way home I couldn't stop crying.
I regret that I didn't visit her on Sunday because she died on that night. Why didn't I visit her, didn't even look at her for the last time before she pass away. I feel so down when I think back again. I should have visit her on that day... The day before(Saturday), I did visit her and from her condition I could feel that she is very2 sick. As I looked into her eyes, they were very red and watery(crying...does that bring any meaning) and I almost cried. After that went home and hope that she'll gets better(but now she's not here already).
The uncle even said that if we didn't bring her to the vet then her probability to stay alive could be higher because he said suppose this type of condition should not be given injections(somemore she was given 3 injections,too much). But what can we do...it's all too late already. I don't know who to be blame...?
She's a part of my life but now she had left me so a part of my life is empty already. Before this, a part of me is filled up by her. Everyday she's with me no matter where I go. I really miss her very much especially the moments where she waits for me at the door when I'm back from somewhere, waits outside my room every morning, sleeps beside me, follows me all over the house, plays with me, goes out with me in my car, running around and many more which I can't finish mentioning here.
I can't do anything because she's dead and I must go on with my life. I do hope that maybe someday I can find another dog like her(if possible but maybe not 100% the same personality). Hope that she can rest in peace...
Wednesday, January 10, 2007
Saturday, January 6, 2007
Will She Survive...???
Will she survive...??? This is the question on my mind these few days. I'm really afraid that she will leave me, I can't afford to lose her. She is so close to me and among all my family members I am the one that is closest to her.
She is very cheerful, playful, energetic, cute, and...lots more. Remember the first day she came into our house, she can adapt so well and I like fell in love for her. I think this is quite true because she is a part of my life other than my family members.
Then last week, I also don't know what had happen and why it happen... She is not feeling very well. She doesn't has the apetite, diarrhoea, vomit, no energy and so moody. I don't understand why this can happen. On the 30th December 2006, we brought her to clinic and she was given 3 injections. So pity her(she's in pain)...but what to do,have to. The doctor said she's having a very high fever. Then took her back with some medicine.
We thought that she will be better after this but the situation din get better until yesterday she didn't eat anything. Before this still ok...at least got eat a little bit. So we brought her to the pet shop where she's from and the uncle said there might be worms attacking her inside(she was given tablet to get rid the worms). Then bring her home with some tablets.
She did gets better a bit and I was so happy. However this doesn't last long because today she vomit out the tablet that I fed her and doesn't want to eat also. She keeps on lying down on the floor(at this moment I'm so worry that she will just go away and leave me).
After taking my lunch, quickly take her to the pet shop again. I'm really afraid that I will lose her, so I leave her there to be taken care by that uncle(she will be given medication). I was told that she still have the chance to recover and I'm a bit relieve. So by the time I'm going out of the shop, she wants to follow me home(oh god, feeling very sad coz have to leave her there).
Don't know what will happen next(only God knows)...but I really hope that she can recover because I really love her very much. I can't imagine how's my world if she's not here anymore. WinWin...you must be strong and recover, I miss you very much. (WinWin...my lovely doggie)
She is very cheerful, playful, energetic, cute, and...lots more. Remember the first day she came into our house, she can adapt so well and I like fell in love for her. I think this is quite true because she is a part of my life other than my family members.
Then last week, I also don't know what had happen and why it happen... She is not feeling very well. She doesn't has the apetite, diarrhoea, vomit, no energy and so moody. I don't understand why this can happen. On the 30th December 2006, we brought her to clinic and she was given 3 injections. So pity her(she's in pain)...but what to do,have to. The doctor said she's having a very high fever. Then took her back with some medicine.
We thought that she will be better after this but the situation din get better until yesterday she didn't eat anything. Before this still ok...at least got eat a little bit. So we brought her to the pet shop where she's from and the uncle said there might be worms attacking her inside(she was given tablet to get rid the worms). Then bring her home with some tablets.
She did gets better a bit and I was so happy. However this doesn't last long because today she vomit out the tablet that I fed her and doesn't want to eat also. She keeps on lying down on the floor(at this moment I'm so worry that she will just go away and leave me).
After taking my lunch, quickly take her to the pet shop again. I'm really afraid that I will lose her, so I leave her there to be taken care by that uncle(she will be given medication). I was told that she still have the chance to recover and I'm a bit relieve. So by the time I'm going out of the shop, she wants to follow me home(oh god, feeling very sad coz have to leave her there).
Don't know what will happen next(only God knows)...but I really hope that she can recover because I really love her very much. I can't imagine how's my world if she's not here anymore. WinWin...you must be strong and recover, I miss you very much. (WinWin...my lovely doggie)
Thursday, January 4, 2007
Year 2007...A Brand New Year...
Hmm...look like another year had past. Now is a new year, a new beginning, another new world, new..., new..., new..., dono wat else is new. No matter what it is...have to go on with the life no matter how bad it is. Time really flies by very fast, without realising it this year I am 20 years old oredy.
So what is my next destination...??? I oso don't know coz I'm so confuse, now I'm on the pathway with no proper direction and goal. There are too many things on my mind and just feel like want to take all...but tat's impossible coz life is short and so we must enjoy our life to the fullest with what we are best and interested in...
That's one of my problem, but there's another problem to be worried before thinking of my future studies (STPM result). I really don't know how I want to apply in local University coz I have done really very2 badly in my STPM. So now juz wait for the result to be out then only i'll decide...haiz... Life is not easy...
Hmm...so boring lar...doing nothing(jobless at d moment). Everyday only watching movies, eating, sleeping, surfing internet and doing nothing. Wanna find job, earn sum $$$...coz such a long time to wait for the STPM and admittance into local U result to be out. So might be going out to Singapore find work lo...
Haiz...really 'fan' lar... So now don't want to think of anything. Just wait for the time to go out Singapore then come back, get STPM result, wait for admittance into local U(if can get) then the rest at that time only think of it liao la... Now want to enjoy 1st...hooray...
So what is my next destination...??? I oso don't know coz I'm so confuse, now I'm on the pathway with no proper direction and goal. There are too many things on my mind and just feel like want to take all...but tat's impossible coz life is short and so we must enjoy our life to the fullest with what we are best and interested in...
That's one of my problem, but there's another problem to be worried before thinking of my future studies (STPM result). I really don't know how I want to apply in local University coz I have done really very2 badly in my STPM. So now juz wait for the result to be out then only i'll decide...haiz... Life is not easy...
Hmm...so boring lar...doing nothing(jobless at d moment). Everyday only watching movies, eating, sleeping, surfing internet and doing nothing. Wanna find job, earn sum $$$...coz such a long time to wait for the STPM and admittance into local U result to be out. So might be going out to Singapore find work lo...
Haiz...really 'fan' lar... So now don't want to think of anything. Just wait for the time to go out Singapore then come back, get STPM result, wait for admittance into local U(if can get) then the rest at that time only think of it liao la... Now want to enjoy 1st...hooray...
Wednesday, January 3, 2007
My School Life (Part IV)
Oh gosh...it's a new year (2007) oredy...but i've not finish my blog on my school life. Haiz...actually wanted to finish up last week but the stupid,slow connection make me really very sick of it and...lazy to blog. So today 1 2 finish up the very last part of school life story which is in SMK Methodist (ACS) Sitiawan. So will b quite a long...long...story...
The 1st day step into the school feel like a bit different from usual coz it's a new environment for me but sooner or later of coz get better and know more friends lor... In lower 6 nothing much lar...get to know more people,study and involve in sum activities.
Then in upper 6 (2006), more things to be done oredy. First few months very5 buzy with lots of activities in school. Firstly, stuff wif school sports day...tis is really a very enjoyable moment, seeing all those people in high spirit no matter doing what (management, house decoration, marching, cheerleading, athletics events and much2 more). I oso won't forget this sports day because my house (Tai Swee Kee) win in the very last minute and become the champion for another year+winner of house decoration. Would like to thank everyone tat hav taken part and co-operate wif me, so hope tat in 2007 u people still can retain the title. All the best to Tai Swee Kee-ian...
After sports, busy wif 6th form society activities which is being held in such a tight schedule. Lots of activities to be done in only 2 months time(April & May)...Pengajian Am quiz, badminton, basketball, volleyball, chess competition, lower six orientation, blood donation campaign, food n drinks sales during ACS carnival and oso teachers' day(games & performances). Luckily can get thru all these wif the help from sum of the members. Because of the support given by teachers n oso members, we manage to get all the activities done in time. Thank you...
Tat's bout 6th form society, then 1 2 talk bout ACS carnival...which i won't forget after leaving the schl. Tis type of carnival is kinda fun n unforgetable 1, i guess. Wat i 1 2 write here is bout my involvement 2gether wif a vry close friend in the preparation b4 n during the carnival. 1 day b4 the carnival, me n LayChooi were 2 of the busiest person,i think so... Going around the schl from class to class(collect information for parade), morning until 3pm. Walauweh...tat time ar...we really like 'siau po' leh...walking non-stop. The next day, another task to be done. We need to line up all the students according to classes, lead them to the field and arrange their position. Finally, the parade is over oredy and we r like...fuh...although very tired but really very satisfied wif wat we have done coz it's a successful 1.
MASCTECH 10th anniversary, I am in charge of making bookmark. Only hav 3/4 days time to get all the bookmarks done and sell them during the expo. It's like unbelievable tat wif the help from a few of my friends, we manage to make more than 150 bookmarks (handmade,using leaves & flowers). Really vry satisfied wif our work coz manage to sell almost all of them. I really 1 2 thank all my friends tat helped me to do the bookmarks in such a short time (LayChooi, MingSie, MingJu, ChinSiew, HuiYong, ChingLim, LiKin, WangKee, XiaoFen)...without u all,sure it won't be so 'laku'...
After all those activities, nothing to do liao...oni going to farewell party and eat...hehe... Then need to concentrate on studies liao lo...coz STPM coming but dono why i juz can't concentrate 100% in my study n as a result my trial exam 'sucks'... Haiz...it's all bcoz of the attitude of don care n din do enough practice, so the result oso 'don care' de lo... Sitting for STPM oso wif nt enough in4mation+knowledge...wat 2 do...it's all too late oredy. So juz wait for the result n then oni decide wat's next.
So...LayChooi n MingSie,hope both of u won't forget our trademark ooh...(D.H.L.) Hahaha...not tat DHL Express meh... All othr friends...hope u all won't forget the sweet n bitter moments tat we shared 2gether,ok... Do keep in touch... Well...tis is the last destination in school life n my long grandfather,grandmother story finish oredy.
The 1st day step into the school feel like a bit different from usual coz it's a new environment for me but sooner or later of coz get better and know more friends lor... In lower 6 nothing much lar...get to know more people,study and involve in sum activities.
Then in upper 6 (2006), more things to be done oredy. First few months very5 buzy with lots of activities in school. Firstly, stuff wif school sports day...tis is really a very enjoyable moment, seeing all those people in high spirit no matter doing what (management, house decoration, marching, cheerleading, athletics events and much2 more). I oso won't forget this sports day because my house (Tai Swee Kee) win in the very last minute and become the champion for another year+winner of house decoration. Would like to thank everyone tat hav taken part and co-operate wif me, so hope tat in 2007 u people still can retain the title. All the best to Tai Swee Kee-ian...
After sports, busy wif 6th form society activities which is being held in such a tight schedule. Lots of activities to be done in only 2 months time(April & May)...Pengajian Am quiz, badminton, basketball, volleyball, chess competition, lower six orientation, blood donation campaign, food n drinks sales during ACS carnival and oso teachers' day(games & performances). Luckily can get thru all these wif the help from sum of the members. Because of the support given by teachers n oso members, we manage to get all the activities done in time. Thank you...
Tat's bout 6th form society, then 1 2 talk bout ACS carnival...which i won't forget after leaving the schl. Tis type of carnival is kinda fun n unforgetable 1, i guess. Wat i 1 2 write here is bout my involvement 2gether wif a vry close friend in the preparation b4 n during the carnival. 1 day b4 the carnival, me n LayChooi were 2 of the busiest person,i think so... Going around the schl from class to class(collect information for parade), morning until 3pm. Walauweh...tat time ar...we really like 'siau po' leh...walking non-stop. The next day, another task to be done. We need to line up all the students according to classes, lead them to the field and arrange their position. Finally, the parade is over oredy and we r like...fuh...although very tired but really very satisfied wif wat we have done coz it's a successful 1.
MASCTECH 10th anniversary, I am in charge of making bookmark. Only hav 3/4 days time to get all the bookmarks done and sell them during the expo. It's like unbelievable tat wif the help from a few of my friends, we manage to make more than 150 bookmarks (handmade,using leaves & flowers). Really vry satisfied wif our work coz manage to sell almost all of them. I really 1 2 thank all my friends tat helped me to do the bookmarks in such a short time (LayChooi, MingSie, MingJu, ChinSiew, HuiYong, ChingLim, LiKin, WangKee, XiaoFen)...without u all,sure it won't be so 'laku'...
After all those activities, nothing to do liao...oni going to farewell party and eat...hehe... Then need to concentrate on studies liao lo...coz STPM coming but dono why i juz can't concentrate 100% in my study n as a result my trial exam 'sucks'... Haiz...it's all bcoz of the attitude of don care n din do enough practice, so the result oso 'don care' de lo... Sitting for STPM oso wif nt enough in4mation+knowledge...wat 2 do...it's all too late oredy. So juz wait for the result n then oni decide wat's next.
So...LayChooi n MingSie,hope both of u won't forget our trademark ooh...(D.H.L.) Hahaha...not tat DHL Express meh... All othr friends...hope u all won't forget the sweet n bitter moments tat we shared 2gether,ok... Do keep in touch... Well...tis is the last destination in school life n my long grandfather,grandmother story finish oredy.
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